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FIC - Who Am I - April - 15 - basched
FIC - Who Am I - April - 15
Title:Who Am !?
Character Focus: April
Characters/Pairing: Matt/Becker, one sided April/Matt 
Word Count: 663
Rating: 15 for sexual references.
Spoilers: In conjunction with my P/P/F story which takes place after season 5. Takes place after my April stories "Two Birds With One Stone" and "New."     
Summary: April finally sees why the "easy way" isn't going to work.
Author's Note: Written for the team fest challenge on   [info]primeval_denial First line prompt of "Deep down April hates herself." by  [info]reggietate Beta'd as always by the lovely [info]fredbassett

Deep down April hates herself. 

She hates him and the man he’s talking to and joking with. She hates that he doesn’t have a clue who she is. 

She hates that she has to flirt with the Temple boy. She hates his blonde bitch of a girlfriend who keeps interfering and poking her nose in. She hates Lester and the others, even that blasted reptile that kept flying around the place.

Who am I?

It was something she asked herself every day.

A clone made from the woman called Dawn. A clone called April Leonard.

April has Dawn’s feelings and memories. She has the same love for the man they both call father, she has her remarkable intelligence, but not so much of her psychosis. Though there are still signs. She feels it in the headaches she gets and the rage she feels, the up and down emotions she was given were insane. 

As so are the lustful urges towards the young man she saw in the future, who was barely been out of his teens. But the boy is no longer a boy, not now. Here, he has matured, the years have grown him up into a prime example of masculinity, they’ve made him appealing, sexy and alluring and so damned fuckable.

April hates him just as much as she is attracted to him. 

It was hard to ignore Dawn’s conflicting emotions towards Matt Anderson. The need for revenge towards him was beyond intense, to see him suffer and fail was great and April is determined to see it through, not just because of what Gideon did, but because of what she was observing. 

She has never been more confused.

No one else noticed, they were subtle and careful, and April certainly wouldn’t have noticed if she hadn’t looked at that precise moment.

She sees them whispering, she hears Matt’s low groan of desire and sees his smile and his touching caress down his friend’s back.  They leave, thinking no one is going to miss them or know where they’re going but April follows all the same.  

Hidden away from cameras and other preying eyes, April watches the two men grasp a rare opportunity to indulge in their fun.    

A red haze of anger surges inside her as the young captain pushes Matt against the wall, pinning him there with his body. Jealous bile chokes up in her mouth as she watches bites at necks turn to kisses, tongues and mouths crushing together, hands tearing and grasping, pleasured moans heaving and words…. words she—Dawn--had once wanted to hear from Matt gasping with urgency. 

“Fuck! Becker!”

April was sickened but she didn’t stop looking as the feelings of arousal and disgust swamped her at the same time. She didn’t stop imagining herself in Becker’s place as his hand easily undid Matt’s jeans and slipped beneath the waistband of Matt’s boxers. She imagined that it was herself that worked Matt to shuddering release and it was she who made him curse in his foreign tongue. She imagined that it was her that Matt clung to for support, breathing heavily into her chest.

“I’m going to kill you for doing that, you bastard!”

April hates herself for having Dawn’s childish crush. It is clear that Matt will not be swayed by her attempts, even the serum she injected into him a couple of days ago isn’t working.

Matt despises her. He thinks her Burton’s lackey and a mere inconvenience. She was no one to him. So he will suffer. His precious future, his friends, his ARC… his toy boy… all of them will die.

It is father’s wish. Focus on the mission and see to it that Connor creates the anomaly.

April walks away the moment Matt drops down to his knees in front of his lover. 

Who am I?  

I’m the one who’s going to show Matt Anderson what a mistake it is to try to stop New Dawn. 

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26 comments or Leave a comment
freddiejoey From: freddiejoey Date: April 25th, 2012 12:42 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, powerful stuff groovy chick!

Fabulous look at April/Dawn's motives
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:50 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you Freddie! Always love that you enjoy my stuff! Cheers
flaccidduck From: flaccidduck Date: April 25th, 2012 01:19 am (UTC) (Link)
Very nicely accomplished!
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:50 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you! :)
natchris From: natchris Date: April 25th, 2012 04:45 am (UTC) (Link)
Sultry and insightful.

A great fic combo!
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:51 am (UTC) (Link)

Cheer! Pleased that you thought it so! :)
judithjohn From: judithjohn Date: April 25th, 2012 06:23 am (UTC) (Link)
Really interesting take on April.

Well done!
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:51 am (UTC) (Link)

diolch! I am most grateful that you enjoyed it. :)
nietie From: nietie Date: April 25th, 2012 07:39 am (UTC) (Link)
OMG! This is so chilling.

I was a bit disappointed in April's storyline in the series, but this is a perfect explanation of her background. I love it.
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:53 am (UTC) (Link)

Why thanks lass!

I was quite disappointed too, but when I came up with my PPF story I came up with this idea then...but wasn't sure how it would fit in with it. Well..Team fest came along and this was that opportunity.

i'm pleased that you liked it and thought it a good explanation!
joshinator From: joshinator Date: April 25th, 2012 07:40 am (UTC) (Link)
Awesome April!
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:54 am (UTC) (Link)

knitekat From: knitekat Date: April 25th, 2012 07:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ooh, intriguing and added Becker/Matt too. More of April/Dawn please.
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:55 am (UTC) (Link)

Why thank you!

I might have to do one more...just so it will make my next chapter of my other fic fit!

Well as for added Matt/Becker...I had to. You know me! Any chance to fit them in! ;) lol
clea2011 From: clea2011 Date: April 25th, 2012 10:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
Your April/Dawn is a very interesting AU - Matt doesn't know how scared he should be! :-)
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:57 am (UTC) (Link)

Oh he should be.... :)

And thank you very much for the comments! They're much loved.
fredbassett From: fredbassett Date: April 26th, 2012 10:12 am (UTC) (Link)
Love teh way the name fits into this, and the last line!
basched From: basched Date: April 26th, 2012 10:59 am (UTC) (Link)

Thanks Fred! I think I might just have to do one more.... :)
talliw From: talliw Date: April 26th, 2012 08:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
That's such a interesting AU. I hope you will write on. I love clone stories.
basched From: basched Date: April 28th, 2012 05:19 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you very much. I have one more to do... :) Cheers.
celeste9 From: celeste9 Date: April 27th, 2012 03:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
April is quite scary! Fabulous look at what drives her and yum for added Matt/Becker.
basched From: basched Date: April 28th, 2012 05:21 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you very much! I hope my last April installment will be a lovely little conclusion...of sorts.

and well....there's always room for Matt/Becker. There has to be! XD
quoththewriter From: quoththewriter Date: May 6th, 2012 09:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
What an interesting take on April! And I can never say no to Matt/Becker. *g*
basched From: basched Date: May 8th, 2012 10:45 am (UTC) (Link)

Thanks! And well...who can say no to Matt/Becker? They are the best! XD Well I think so! *mad squeee*
lsellersfic From: lsellersfic Date: May 7th, 2012 02:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
*shivers* You're building up quite a character and back story for April here!
basched From: basched Date: May 8th, 2012 10:46 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you. :) She deserves it!
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